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i'm Sharing my Thoughts today

Today is Sunday the 26th of June, indeed a very good day for me coz i got a chance to take my VL ,

so me and my sister decided to go out and watch movie, i suggested to watch SUPER 8,

driving to SM sta rosa to check if this movie still showing but unfortunately it is Done already same at Rob Sta Rosa,.

so we dont have a choice but to check Alabang, ,while on the Road i've called Bff Floro to join us today,..and Perfect !! Super 8* is still showing at Cinema 2 Festival Mall.,

then around 5 in the afternoon at McDonalds ground flr. while were waiting for Floro and im busy eating french fries.my sister approach me and told me to look behind ,then suddenly

I saw u coming Unexpectedly

Eyes to Eyes and a quick glance to your face and we both shock and can't explain the feeling on that moment. I'm sweating cold so badly..
to be honest when you're passing by i felt weak and a bit teary, because there is something between us that we haven't settled yet, and i just bow down and then your gone.
and Thinking why time is very fast in this kind of situation,

At this point.,

I'm still trying to catch up ,still can't get over with it, i was dwelling with my emotion and im not comfortable doing this, i'm trying to divert it into other things, in short im fucking bothered about it, you know trying to hide what i really feel.

I want to call you nor approach you that time but im totally afraid to do it, thinking that u might beat me or ignore me..

This is a very surprising moment happened today

because after 3 years this is the 1st time we've seen each other again,

Bitterness, Guilt and Hatred those are the things that we got from our younger days, showing that for a single mistake our friendship can be gone forever.,

it actually flashback all the memories..ouch!..

Saw you wearing printed white Tee , Denim Cup Slim Shorts and Sneaks, you're still the same when we left before, your FACE your Hair and only thing i've noticed your kinda THIN.

i'm glad that we both have our own life now and everything is on the right track,,You Look pretty Good now,

Honestly i really want to forget everything about our past it's kinda ackward to brought up this concern today after a very long time,i know its Hurt us much, the Guilt and Being unfair that is what we are before, got no chance to talk about it and settled it for good,,and i know sorry is not enough,but i still believe that there is always a room for forgiveness, You know what really matters now is what the present brought our own personal life,.

You actually give me reason to changed all my perspective, i thank you for giving me the idea to changed all my FLAWS and i used that as a challenged for my everyday life, and one thing i really wish for is to move my feet forward now ( or moving on ) Honestly i was stuck on that feeling since then,

Bitterness can we put that aside for the meantime, i know that im so stupid to brought everything and shouldnt talk about this anymore..but the thing is we dont even say goodbye and no single word we says,letting the times.days.months or even years passed by...i'm just wshing for a formal closure..

I'm doing perfectly with my own life now and no regrets about it..i 'm happy for all the blessings god given me, not only for me and also for my family,i always put and keep on my mind that from this experience i will learn a lot,,u know nga " Experience is th e best teacher,,".but whatever i do theres something holding me back everyday..

But what the funny thing happened today when i was inside the movie house and watching it, im not able to fully understand the movie and i don't really know what i'm watching,nor take this movie seriously.
because my mind was stuck or focus on what happend earlier,,

giving me Good and Bad feelings toward the Day..

Just to clear everything i'm writing this message not because i want you to come back or to give us another chance, this is just sharing my thoughts and feelings towards what happened today and i know someday we can have atleast moment to settle it for good, this is not the perfect time to do it,,but i know we will get there soon,,so that if there is another chances that we get bumped or crossed our roads again we can now put smile on our face,,

i'm wishing you all the best in life .

*sigh....